“I asked Eloise on the way home from school last week if she remembered her dad, who died when she was only 2 and a half. After insisting she show me her ‘daddy book,’ I asked her if she remembered…
Our Love Story: The Preamble
The thought of sharing my life again with someone after Marcus died was intimidating. But it was but also something I yearned for deeply. I never wanted to be single. I spent almost a decade leaning on my husband, growing…
How to Grow Your Relationship with God with an Overloaded Schedule
I want to give a little backstory of my spiritual journey and relationship with God. Because at this point in my life, it looks a whole lot different than it used to. I am 30 years old. I was raised…
Saying Yes To Help
Allow people to help. As soon as Marcus died and I could catch my breath, I started the most daunting task of my life: telling people. How do you even begin that conversation? This is something so horrifying, so shocking,…
One Year Without You
It hurts so bad to live this life without him. We are doing really well in spite, but it’s awful. The worst thing I would have imagined in this life would have been him dying. And it happened. And it still doesn’t make sense to me because he was GOOD. And godly. And loving. And honest. And loyal. And all that is so rare.
Year In Review // Decade Recap
A lot has changed in the past ten years, and even more this year. Going through pictures and memories from this year has me remembering the big adventure we have lived! I love doing a year in review and am…
A Year Ago Today Was the Last Day I Saw My Son-in-Law
Grief as a mother-in-law is complicated. I wept for the son-in-law that I loved like a son. I wept for my daughter who lost her soul mate. I wept for my three grandbabies that lost the best daddy in the…
A Letter to my Children
I hope you know how incredible you are. That if you have survived this, survived this year, that you can do anything. Even though you were so young, you’ve endured one of the hardest things any person would have to…
Compelled to Breathe
(Yes, some pictures are sideways. No, I can’t figure out how to fix it. I have tried all week and lost interest. Just tilt your head sideways and voila!…) Grieving with three young kids is tough. I have all these…
One Month
It has been one month since my husband passed away. A sudden shock and blow to our family, completely turning our lives upside down. He was our rock, the captain who steered this ship, and now he is gone. We…